You're no news.
That's old news.
Old gnus is good gnus...
er...wildebeasts
When cares attack, and life seems black
How sweet it is to pot a yak.
Or puncture hares and grizzly bears,
And others I could mention.
But on my animals "Who's Who"
No name stands higher than the Gnu.
And each new gnu that comes in view
Receives my prompt attention.
When Afric's sun is sinking low
And there's a silence that is deep and solemn,
That is the time when good men and true
With view haloo pursue the gnu
(The safest spot to put your shot
Is through the spinal column)
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Maybe there are answers...
As hard as it is for me to wrap my stubborn, independent mind around... there is the fact that God lives in the eternal and we live in the now. God looks at what is best in the big picture, and we stumble around in our day-to-day notions of fairness. I do believe that sometimes God allows things for the only reason that without it people would not look to God for help. There is no reason to call the doctor if you are not sick. We all are terribly sick, but some of us don't know it. Without feeling the pain, we have no clue of the cancer eating away at our insides...
"The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. YET He does NOT leave the guilty unpunished."
"Then Job replied to the Lord: I know that you can do all things; no plan of your can be thwarted... surely I spoke of things I did not understand.... my ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you. therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes."
"The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. YET He does NOT leave the guilty unpunished."
"Then Job replied to the Lord: I know that you can do all things; no plan of your can be thwarted... surely I spoke of things I did not understand.... my ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you. therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes."
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
faith crisis....
I haven't written in here in a while. There are so many thoughts in my head... Funny how a person can be so very busy, but yet their mind just won't stop. My huge question I am wresting with is how come God doesn't step in and DO SOMETHING!? It seems I am surrounded by people who hurt others and there is nothing being done. Is God just, or does he just turn a deaf ear? I long for justice. If God does nothing, then who is going to stand up for those who are hurt? The deep down question that it goes to is there are so many people who cry out for God to help, and it seems like He doesn't. So why should he help me? If God doesn't protect other children, then why should he protect mine? Then there is the issue of answered prayer. I have prayed for some things for years and years, and there is seemingly no answer.
Maybe I need to quit watching the news, that these are isolated cases that I am blowing up in my head. Yet I am surrounded by friends, family, and others in my life who have been so deeply hurt and nothing has been done. I really wonder what the point is of even asking.
I feel so guilty. My life is so good. I am married to a husband who really loves me, and only me (not 7 other wives). My children are healthy, I am healthy. We have a great house, and soon will have another one. I have a wonderful extended family... Why me? Why does it seem God favors some, and let's other children be so badly abused? Then I feel bad for wanting some of the small things (like friends here would be nice) when others are just crying out to God for the people in their lives to stop hitting them!
After laying awake most of the night, the verse did come to my mind: "The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." He has promised that the wicked will be punished, but come on already. He has promised that all our prayers will be answered... but again WHEN!?
I'm just so very pissed.
It used to be the running joke with some people I knew that I got everything I asked for. If someone wanted something, they would ask me to pray for it! I know Job asked God some huge questions and God shot back, who are you to demand of me?! I am asking... I have huge questions and I would like some answers...
Maybe I need to quit watching the news, that these are isolated cases that I am blowing up in my head. Yet I am surrounded by friends, family, and others in my life who have been so deeply hurt and nothing has been done. I really wonder what the point is of even asking.
I feel so guilty. My life is so good. I am married to a husband who really loves me, and only me (not 7 other wives). My children are healthy, I am healthy. We have a great house, and soon will have another one. I have a wonderful extended family... Why me? Why does it seem God favors some, and let's other children be so badly abused? Then I feel bad for wanting some of the small things (like friends here would be nice) when others are just crying out to God for the people in their lives to stop hitting them!
After laying awake most of the night, the verse did come to my mind: "The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." He has promised that the wicked will be punished, but come on already. He has promised that all our prayers will be answered... but again WHEN!?
I'm just so very pissed.
It used to be the running joke with some people I knew that I got everything I asked for. If someone wanted something, they would ask me to pray for it! I know Job asked God some huge questions and God shot back, who are you to demand of me?! I am asking... I have huge questions and I would like some answers...
Friday, March 28, 2008
2 1/2 Weeks until listing day...
Our "to-do" list is progressively getting shorter. Dave is working SO HARD. He works all day at the office, comes home and plays with the kids for an hour, then goes outside and works until dark.
We looked at property two days ago. Fell in love with a place 10 miles south of here. It's 5 acres, and is bordered on 2 sides by farmland. The back side has a 20 foot canyon with a creek at the bottom. There are views of the mountains on three sides. I'm scared to death my kids would find the canyon, but that it's a bit far back there. We've also looked at modular home plans. So exciting, the thought of getting something BRAND NEW!
Last night I made jambalaya for supper. Yumm! This week is the week of family favorites. Jambalaya, Mexican lasagna, bar-b-qued ribs... I'm a good cook, if I have to say so myself.
Question of the day, what do you do when you really like someone as a friend but can NOT stand their kid? Especially when that kid pushes and shoves and hits and is just downright mean to your children?
We looked at property two days ago. Fell in love with a place 10 miles south of here. It's 5 acres, and is bordered on 2 sides by farmland. The back side has a 20 foot canyon with a creek at the bottom. There are views of the mountains on three sides. I'm scared to death my kids would find the canyon, but that it's a bit far back there. We've also looked at modular home plans. So exciting, the thought of getting something BRAND NEW!
Last night I made jambalaya for supper. Yumm! This week is the week of family favorites. Jambalaya, Mexican lasagna, bar-b-qued ribs... I'm a good cook, if I have to say so myself.
Question of the day, what do you do when you really like someone as a friend but can NOT stand their kid? Especially when that kid pushes and shoves and hits and is just downright mean to your children?
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